For the time being, I've stopped using Idealize, Realize . Why? Well, laziness in part, but also because I started to get the sense that it was enabling unhealthy behavior by allowing me to articulate how "trapped" I felt in it. Most of my successes in life have come not from meditating on my failures, but on denying ownership of those failures, creating an ideal persona, and realizing it.
The blog helped with some of the idealizing and realizing (hence its name!), but it had started to become a bit of a forum for self-pity, and I want to avoid that tendency.
Anyway, I've started a new life with a Big Calendar and a Red Sharpie. I'm doing lots of great things, and I'd like to record for myself all those things I'm doing. And maybe also the things I'm eating.
+j
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